"A great love, is a lot like a good memory, when it's there, and you know it's there, but it's just out of your reach. it can be all you think about.
You can focus on it and try to force it, but the more you do the more you seem to push it away.
But if you're patient and you hold still, maybe, just maybe, it'll come to you."
<3
Saturday, 19 February 2011
Inception
She wraps her arms around my neck and i position my arms around her waist, we hold each other. The feel of her body close to mine and the sweet smell of her hair washes over me, spreading a warmth from my head to my toes. I am reluctant to let this perfect moment but eventually she loosens her hold and moves back. But this time instead of moving away she keeps her arms around me, and before I'm able to contemplate this abnormality she leans towards me and lightly kisses me on the lips before releasing me and skipping away to join her friends.
I am momentarily stunned. Confused. Unable to take in what just happened. My first kiss, i never thought it would happen to me. I slowly raise my finger to my mouth and touch the place our lips met. Time seems to have stopped but as reality slowly comes back to me i am filled with a joy i have never experienced before, butterflies explode in my stomach with such force i find it difficult to breathe but a small smile still manages to twitch the corner of my mouth. I love her, she loves me, and right now it feels like it could last forever.
-For the month of December, 2010-
*Inception = "The beginning of something"
I am momentarily stunned. Confused. Unable to take in what just happened. My first kiss, i never thought it would happen to me. I slowly raise my finger to my mouth and touch the place our lips met. Time seems to have stopped but as reality slowly comes back to me i am filled with a joy i have never experienced before, butterflies explode in my stomach with such force i find it difficult to breathe but a small smile still manages to twitch the corner of my mouth. I love her, she loves me, and right now it feels like it could last forever.
-For the month of December, 2010-
*Inception = "The beginning of something"
Wednesday, 22 December 2010
A-Zen of LIFE.
So in my previous post i mentioned my views on life and personality; how we should treat one another.
Well recently i was in HMV buying posters to fill the large areas of blank wall in my room, i bought a Paramore poster, a You Me At Six poster, a Halo: Reach poster and an "A-Zen of Life" poster.
So i had to buy it when i saw it because i thought, if its on your wall you'l see it everyday and might find it easier to follow the points!
Well recently i was in HMV buying posters to fill the large areas of blank wall in my room, i bought a Paramore poster, a You Me At Six poster, a Halo: Reach poster and an "A-Zen of Life" poster.
Obviously these are posters of things i enjoy but it is the last one i want to mention the most.
Because as i said previously about my veiws on life, this poster pretty much sums my veiws up!So i had to buy it when i saw it because i thought, if its on your wall you'l see it everyday and might find it easier to follow the points!
So there it is. I don't know if you can read the writing.
But we should all follow these!
Instead of a song of the day, today's is a quote of the day:
Its from Fast & Furious: Tokyo Drift, not a film you'd expect a meaningful line from but there was a few.
Here is one:
Sean: "So why'd you let me use your car? You knew i was gonna wreck it."
Han: "It's just a car"
Sean: "Still, thats a lot of money thrown away"
Han: "I have money, its trust and character i need around me, one car to see what a man's made of? That's a price i'm willing to pay."
Sean: "So why don't you ever race?"
Han: "What's the point of a race?"
Sean: "To prove i'm better then the other guy."
Han: "Just proves you're faster that's all, if i were to race, it'd have to be for something important"
Think about that.
Saturday, 18 December 2010
How Can You See Into My Eyes?
I'm not really sure how to start this. We know that this isn't really like keeping a diary, it's more of an online counsellor where we come to spill our troubles. However I know from experiance that talking to someone can help you so much, if you cant do that then write down what is wrong. Sometimes when it's before you, you can more easily sort your confusions.
Funny; i once told a girl i cared about so much that if she had problems (and she has many) she should talk to me about them, because i wanted to help. I told her instead of punching that wall with anger, she should sit down, breathe slowly and if needed, write down what was troubling her and any possible solutions. Ironic perhaps; that this same person and her new love are the only cause of confusion and unhappiness in my life nowadays. There was a "confrontation" last night between her new boyfriend and me; i said something on a Facebook post of hers that was honestly meant in good humour and he picked me up on it and began accusing me of various things.
I think at this point i need to stop and; attempt to the best of my ability to explain me. How i am, how i see.
I am proud to say i am a very optimistic person, i have always had the ability to see the good side of any situation. For example; my girlfriend whom i loved very much dumped me, this tore me apart for weeks. But my friends told me they were suprised how fast i got over her, i know how i did it. I told myself the truth, however much my instinct was to weep and weep and beg to have her back with me, it was better without her. If she hadn't ended it; we would have been living a lie, and wouldn't have been any happier. I knew that missing something you can't have is pointless and i believe that sorrow and unhappiness are a waste of time, this is how i got over her faster even though honestly it was not fun or easy. My second example is when my Grandad died; another very sad occasion that upset me. However, wherever he is or isn't, he's not in pain any more.
I also believe that everyone should attempt to be nice to everyone else around them no matter the circumstances. I know that getting angry with someone will never help the situation, and violence isn't the answer. This enables me to pull off something else i am proud of, and i wish everyone could do; if somebody is insulting me or offending me, it doesn't work. I can safely say with evidence that you cannot offend me, because i just think about how pathetic that person is, and remember that aggression of word or fist is not a solution. I always respond calmly.
This leads me back to my confrontation; he picked me up on something i'd said. Now something else about me is i am is very self-critical and neutral; meaning if someone says i have been cocky or elitist i honestly step back and consider this instead of retorting angrily. Our confrontation last night was a back and forth... discussion, to him it was probably an argument but i know that i was calm throughout so to me it was merely a discussion which I ended by telling him the truth; that i do not hate him in any small way. This is something that he is surely very lucky to have? He took my girlfriend from me and always attacks everything i do; yet i do not hold anything agaisnt him. I ended by also saying that i would at anytime be prepared to shake his hand and forget our differences. He told me to "get my head out the clouds". In the course of this discussion he talked angrily and swore a few times. I did neither of those.
HOWEVER, this is where my critical side comes in, the last paragraph may sound cocky or one sided, but i am very very aware that he could be justified in his accusations. I think that everything about me i have told you could be taken the wrong way and anyone could claim that i think i am better then everyone.
This is what he claims, that i am arrogant and elitist. If this is the impression i give this will sadden me deeply because i know that this is the complete opposite of what i think and believe in. Unfortunatly you have only my word to take for that, and i know there are some like him who will not. But i do not call him prejudiced, i am only saddened that he does not understand me how i would like him too. In all honesty i do not think many people understand me. In fact the person who might do isn't really a well known friend at all, we merely talk occasionally when some event brings us together. But i refused to hold a grudge agaisnt her when my best friends were telling me too because it goes agaisnt what i believe is right, i know you should stand with your friends and defend them but i will not hate someone for them. I think this person understood me the best because in their unfortunate circumstance i was able to show how i think. They told me once:
"You are one of the nicest people I have ever met. I don't want to sound patronising but you're really wise and it kinda surprised me when I first got to know you! I really respect your views and how you treat other people. You're really genuine and selfless and you don't see that a lot with people. :)"
This is maybe the only time that anyone has told me this, and its all i've ever wanted to hear to be honest, it proves that at least one person knows me how i see myself. Thank you.
I was lying in bed last night after the confrontation; and i thought in one of those moments, i could see.. now this may sound strange but i speak honestly, i could see why people need religion.
Because i do not believe in a God, or a Heaven, or consequences if we're bad. I have no purpose to attempt to be kind to everyone and to not be aggressive or selfish, i'm not trying to go to Heaven (although it is said that those who attempt to get to heaven go to hell because they are selfish or something). Sometimes i wish i had a purpose, that there could be a god and i am working towards some greater good. But i do not believe this, so my attitude to life is not based on anything. But it is what i believe is the right thing to do. There is no-one to judge what is right or wrong, this is just what i think. In the end, we are all responsible for ourselves and others. God or not we decide our fate. I watched the new Karate Kid film today, some good moral messages there. "Sometimes life will throw you down, it is up to you whether you get back up or not". Another favourite of mine is from Batman Begins: "Why do we fall? so we can learn to pick ourselves up". I think this is true, unfortunatly it is inevitable that in our lives we may have to fight and we WILL fall at some point. But it is only up to us to ensure we fight for the right reasons, and that we do get back up. Anything is possible if you have faith in yourself, sometimes it is the only thing left to have faith in, but it is the most important thing to believe.
I think this concludes my thoughts for today.
Life is too short to waste on negative thoughts and feelings.
Song of the day:
"Because the judge of you is someone i could never be,
S'why you should thank the lord that it is him and it's not me,
But don't give up it's not the end,
There's hope for every fallen man,
To pick themselves up when they think they can't,
Cos with every passing second comes a second chance."
** Hope for every fallen man [Acoustic] -- Relient K **
Funny; i once told a girl i cared about so much that if she had problems (and she has many) she should talk to me about them, because i wanted to help. I told her instead of punching that wall with anger, she should sit down, breathe slowly and if needed, write down what was troubling her and any possible solutions. Ironic perhaps; that this same person and her new love are the only cause of confusion and unhappiness in my life nowadays. There was a "confrontation" last night between her new boyfriend and me; i said something on a Facebook post of hers that was honestly meant in good humour and he picked me up on it and began accusing me of various things.
I think at this point i need to stop and; attempt to the best of my ability to explain me. How i am, how i see.
I am proud to say i am a very optimistic person, i have always had the ability to see the good side of any situation. For example; my girlfriend whom i loved very much dumped me, this tore me apart for weeks. But my friends told me they were suprised how fast i got over her, i know how i did it. I told myself the truth, however much my instinct was to weep and weep and beg to have her back with me, it was better without her. If she hadn't ended it; we would have been living a lie, and wouldn't have been any happier. I knew that missing something you can't have is pointless and i believe that sorrow and unhappiness are a waste of time, this is how i got over her faster even though honestly it was not fun or easy. My second example is when my Grandad died; another very sad occasion that upset me. However, wherever he is or isn't, he's not in pain any more.
I also believe that everyone should attempt to be nice to everyone else around them no matter the circumstances. I know that getting angry with someone will never help the situation, and violence isn't the answer. This enables me to pull off something else i am proud of, and i wish everyone could do; if somebody is insulting me or offending me, it doesn't work. I can safely say with evidence that you cannot offend me, because i just think about how pathetic that person is, and remember that aggression of word or fist is not a solution. I always respond calmly.
This leads me back to my confrontation; he picked me up on something i'd said. Now something else about me is i am is very self-critical and neutral; meaning if someone says i have been cocky or elitist i honestly step back and consider this instead of retorting angrily. Our confrontation last night was a back and forth... discussion, to him it was probably an argument but i know that i was calm throughout so to me it was merely a discussion which I ended by telling him the truth; that i do not hate him in any small way. This is something that he is surely very lucky to have? He took my girlfriend from me and always attacks everything i do; yet i do not hold anything agaisnt him. I ended by also saying that i would at anytime be prepared to shake his hand and forget our differences. He told me to "get my head out the clouds". In the course of this discussion he talked angrily and swore a few times. I did neither of those.
HOWEVER, this is where my critical side comes in, the last paragraph may sound cocky or one sided, but i am very very aware that he could be justified in his accusations. I think that everything about me i have told you could be taken the wrong way and anyone could claim that i think i am better then everyone.
This is what he claims, that i am arrogant and elitist. If this is the impression i give this will sadden me deeply because i know that this is the complete opposite of what i think and believe in. Unfortunatly you have only my word to take for that, and i know there are some like him who will not. But i do not call him prejudiced, i am only saddened that he does not understand me how i would like him too. In all honesty i do not think many people understand me. In fact the person who might do isn't really a well known friend at all, we merely talk occasionally when some event brings us together. But i refused to hold a grudge agaisnt her when my best friends were telling me too because it goes agaisnt what i believe is right, i know you should stand with your friends and defend them but i will not hate someone for them. I think this person understood me the best because in their unfortunate circumstance i was able to show how i think. They told me once:
"You are one of the nicest people I have ever met. I don't want to sound patronising but you're really wise and it kinda surprised me when I first got to know you! I really respect your views and how you treat other people. You're really genuine and selfless and you don't see that a lot with people. :)"
This is maybe the only time that anyone has told me this, and its all i've ever wanted to hear to be honest, it proves that at least one person knows me how i see myself. Thank you.
I was lying in bed last night after the confrontation; and i thought in one of those moments, i could see.. now this may sound strange but i speak honestly, i could see why people need religion.
Because i do not believe in a God, or a Heaven, or consequences if we're bad. I have no purpose to attempt to be kind to everyone and to not be aggressive or selfish, i'm not trying to go to Heaven (although it is said that those who attempt to get to heaven go to hell because they are selfish or something). Sometimes i wish i had a purpose, that there could be a god and i am working towards some greater good. But i do not believe this, so my attitude to life is not based on anything. But it is what i believe is the right thing to do. There is no-one to judge what is right or wrong, this is just what i think. In the end, we are all responsible for ourselves and others. God or not we decide our fate. I watched the new Karate Kid film today, some good moral messages there. "Sometimes life will throw you down, it is up to you whether you get back up or not". Another favourite of mine is from Batman Begins: "Why do we fall? so we can learn to pick ourselves up". I think this is true, unfortunatly it is inevitable that in our lives we may have to fight and we WILL fall at some point. But it is only up to us to ensure we fight for the right reasons, and that we do get back up. Anything is possible if you have faith in yourself, sometimes it is the only thing left to have faith in, but it is the most important thing to believe.
I think this concludes my thoughts for today.
Life is too short to waste on negative thoughts and feelings.
Song of the day:
"Because the judge of you is someone i could never be,
S'why you should thank the lord that it is him and it's not me,
But don't give up it's not the end,
There's hope for every fallen man,
To pick themselves up when they think they can't,
Cos with every passing second comes a second chance."
** Hope for every fallen man [Acoustic] -- Relient K **
Wednesday, 13 October 2010
How Times Change.
Wow its really been such a long time since i blogged! In fact its been too long because so much has happened since my last post.
I just went and read through all the posts ive ever posted from first to last. It was really interesting! Like re-reading diary entries i guess. I notice how much i talked about Sian and how much i loved her, and how much i talked about people with break-ups.
Funny how things have come around.
So since my last post things have happened. Number one was: Sian dumped me. Now it was really weird re-reading how i felt about her months ago. But i'm not ashamed and i don't take it back because i meant everything i said. In fact, i think i'll show her this blog.. I never did tell her about this, and i dont want to make her feel guilty or anything but if i can look back and smile at the memories then maybe she can too? Hehe.
Like i said when i was re-reading my blogs i talk about break-ups, that was because my relationship was amazing and we felt so invincible while other people were breaking down. Seems the circle has come about and it's finally my turn.
But Sian dumped me about... 5 weeks ago now, so im pretty sure i've moved on now so im not as sad now. I can honestly say i've never felt as upset in my life as that night it ended. But as i always said in my blogs; life goes on doesn't it. And whatever i'm fine now so hey its cool. And we're still best friends which is perfect!! Cos its funny, while we were going out we agreed we'd still be friends if we broke up, and i'm glad she honoured that promise. I dont care what she says about herself she is a lovely person at heart.
Its certainly weird now though, not loving someone.. because now i have loved i feel like i need someone to love again, something IS missing in me. Not Sian's part of my heart that's healed itself. But it is so nice having someone to care for and who cares for you. In fact i just saw a facebook group called "Like if you've wasted your time on someone" well im certainly not joining that because it waws truly worth every second! Just because things've changed now doesn't mean we didnt once feel that way. I think, i do miss the memories, there are just so many happy times that even though i might not love her the same anymore i would still re-play because you should never forget the happy times in your life. Its SO easy to focus on the negative but you have to fight that and be positive. Thats my belief.
Other thing's that are going on: well it seems everyones breaking up at the moment anyway so me and 2 of my best mates get to enjoy being dumped together! fun.... hah. But yeah i'm really confused about whats going on with one of my best friends his ex seems to be accusing me of shit stirring.. this has really upset me because i dont want to cause trouble! i dont want enemies. And i've thought about everything i've said to anyone and i'm sure i haven't "shit stirred".. At least not on purpose but im sure i havent done anything. But i will say it clearly shows how much people value my friendship if they just automatically accuse me of making trouble. From my point of view someone else is causing the trouble but i won't say who. Its a delicate situation but its also really quite a stupid one.
Haha i love the way my first blog after months is soooo negative.
BUT i'm not feeling negative, i'm in a good mood most of the time, one thing being with Sian did was show me how to enjoy things way more. Everything is suddenly so much funnier then it used to be and i think its the contagious way Sian laughs at everything thats rubbed off on me hehe. Well i'll continue this positiveness by saying that Sian has really changed me so much for the better! I can't thank her enough for it to be honest. Being in a relationship with someone who was so understanding and easy going meant that the shy-quiet boy i used to be has gained sooo much more confidence and its great! I'm definately more outgoing and confident about everything then i once was. And unlike some people seem to say the break-up hasn't meant i never want a relationship ever again because i was hurt, because i'm a positive person i focus on all those happy moments that happened really over ALL of my Year 10 year. Now i try not to use emoticons here, but this deserves a happy face.
^_^
Hehe. Well that's probably it for now, OH apart from i recorded myself singing because i wanted to see what it was like. Unfortunatly what i can hear sounds much different when played back to me. So i think i'll need lessons or something. Because i can't play an instrument, but i really enjoy singing. Im just bad at it. hah.
OH and another thing, i've considered starting VLogging.... thats Video Logging. I'm inspired by two people on youtube (Search for KimmiTalks and DaveDays) who do this and they make it look quite entertaining! And Dave writes and plays songs so he's like my singing inspiration and he did a joint song with Kimmi and i love it way too much! Kimmi is just generally awesome, i know you can't say that about someone you only know on youtube but she's so funny and rather cute (okay so she's 18 but you know..). But if anyone asks me who my favourite celebrity is, its her. Even if she's not famous muahaha. And she's australian! Which trebles her coolness. But yeah there you have it haha. She says we should all keep smiling, which is so true! and her videos cheer me up if i'm down cos they're funny and so random.
Right i think thats it now. It is fun blogging like this, somewhere were you can just write about how you feel it really helps you make desisions if you can see them laid out before you!
Now i always try to end with a song don't i!
But i don't know which one to pick today!!
So i'm going to say the song names instead.
The Reason - Hoobastank: This song really means so much to me. It is PERFECT for me, especially after my little.. break-up.
Olive You - Dave Days feat. Kimmi Smiles: Hahaha this one had to come here, because its such a cute song!
Over You - Daughtry: Well i said about this song months ago, but now it actually applies to me haha.
Cya'l!
Keep smiling!
I just went and read through all the posts ive ever posted from first to last. It was really interesting! Like re-reading diary entries i guess. I notice how much i talked about Sian and how much i loved her, and how much i talked about people with break-ups.
Funny how things have come around.
So since my last post things have happened. Number one was: Sian dumped me. Now it was really weird re-reading how i felt about her months ago. But i'm not ashamed and i don't take it back because i meant everything i said. In fact, i think i'll show her this blog.. I never did tell her about this, and i dont want to make her feel guilty or anything but if i can look back and smile at the memories then maybe she can too? Hehe.
Like i said when i was re-reading my blogs i talk about break-ups, that was because my relationship was amazing and we felt so invincible while other people were breaking down. Seems the circle has come about and it's finally my turn.
But Sian dumped me about... 5 weeks ago now, so im pretty sure i've moved on now so im not as sad now. I can honestly say i've never felt as upset in my life as that night it ended. But as i always said in my blogs; life goes on doesn't it. And whatever i'm fine now so hey its cool. And we're still best friends which is perfect!! Cos its funny, while we were going out we agreed we'd still be friends if we broke up, and i'm glad she honoured that promise. I dont care what she says about herself she is a lovely person at heart.
Its certainly weird now though, not loving someone.. because now i have loved i feel like i need someone to love again, something IS missing in me. Not Sian's part of my heart that's healed itself. But it is so nice having someone to care for and who cares for you. In fact i just saw a facebook group called "Like if you've wasted your time on someone" well im certainly not joining that because it waws truly worth every second! Just because things've changed now doesn't mean we didnt once feel that way. I think, i do miss the memories, there are just so many happy times that even though i might not love her the same anymore i would still re-play because you should never forget the happy times in your life. Its SO easy to focus on the negative but you have to fight that and be positive. Thats my belief.
Other thing's that are going on: well it seems everyones breaking up at the moment anyway so me and 2 of my best mates get to enjoy being dumped together! fun.... hah. But yeah i'm really confused about whats going on with one of my best friends his ex seems to be accusing me of shit stirring.. this has really upset me because i dont want to cause trouble! i dont want enemies. And i've thought about everything i've said to anyone and i'm sure i haven't "shit stirred".. At least not on purpose but im sure i havent done anything. But i will say it clearly shows how much people value my friendship if they just automatically accuse me of making trouble. From my point of view someone else is causing the trouble but i won't say who. Its a delicate situation but its also really quite a stupid one.
Haha i love the way my first blog after months is soooo negative.
BUT i'm not feeling negative, i'm in a good mood most of the time, one thing being with Sian did was show me how to enjoy things way more. Everything is suddenly so much funnier then it used to be and i think its the contagious way Sian laughs at everything thats rubbed off on me hehe. Well i'll continue this positiveness by saying that Sian has really changed me so much for the better! I can't thank her enough for it to be honest. Being in a relationship with someone who was so understanding and easy going meant that the shy-quiet boy i used to be has gained sooo much more confidence and its great! I'm definately more outgoing and confident about everything then i once was. And unlike some people seem to say the break-up hasn't meant i never want a relationship ever again because i was hurt, because i'm a positive person i focus on all those happy moments that happened really over ALL of my Year 10 year. Now i try not to use emoticons here, but this deserves a happy face.
^_^
Hehe. Well that's probably it for now, OH apart from i recorded myself singing because i wanted to see what it was like. Unfortunatly what i can hear sounds much different when played back to me. So i think i'll need lessons or something. Because i can't play an instrument, but i really enjoy singing. Im just bad at it. hah.
OH and another thing, i've considered starting VLogging.... thats Video Logging. I'm inspired by two people on youtube (Search for KimmiTalks and DaveDays) who do this and they make it look quite entertaining! And Dave writes and plays songs so he's like my singing inspiration and he did a joint song with Kimmi and i love it way too much! Kimmi is just generally awesome, i know you can't say that about someone you only know on youtube but she's so funny and rather cute (okay so she's 18 but you know..). But if anyone asks me who my favourite celebrity is, its her. Even if she's not famous muahaha. And she's australian! Which trebles her coolness. But yeah there you have it haha. She says we should all keep smiling, which is so true! and her videos cheer me up if i'm down cos they're funny and so random.
Right i think thats it now. It is fun blogging like this, somewhere were you can just write about how you feel it really helps you make desisions if you can see them laid out before you!
Now i always try to end with a song don't i!
But i don't know which one to pick today!!
So i'm going to say the song names instead.
The Reason - Hoobastank: This song really means so much to me. It is PERFECT for me, especially after my little.. break-up.
Olive You - Dave Days feat. Kimmi Smiles: Hahaha this one had to come here, because its such a cute song!
Over You - Daughtry: Well i said about this song months ago, but now it actually applies to me haha.
Cya'l!
Keep smiling!
Tuesday, 27 July 2010
Saturday, 3 July 2010
"Welcome to the beginning of the end of your life..." lmao
Nice little quote from Halo: Reach there...
Well I don't need to say I haven't blogged in ages because its obvious.
Just got back from Iceland, definitely the best trip of a lifetime ever! Just so spectacular..
Lalalala ive actually forgotten what i was going to say, well that makes this post pointless haha!
Ive got really into loads of songs recently including "Daughtry" , Now i must admit i sort of protect music i like rather jealously. As in i might not give away songs i like because i enjoy being the only person i know with them.BUT being the unselfish and self-critical person i am means i understand this is a stupid and selfish thing to think so i ignore these thoughts.
If only everyone could evaluate their actions.
Indeed.
Well the best Daughtry songs are:
"What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me, all that i was meant to be.
What if our love, never went away?
What if it's lost behind, words we can never find.."
I think Blogger is making Grooveshark run slowly because it won't load any songs. Oh wait there we go.
Its playing Over You at the moment, good stuff.
Isn't it funny how music can really affect how you feel? How some people listen to music of a certain tone or genre because of its themes and mostly because of what it says. Some music can be really deep and meaning, and really move you to emotion, for example My Immortal by Evanescense once made me cry, when my life was perfectly happy. Proving that either i am a spineless emotional wreck, or music really can inspire emotions.
People probably listen to sad music when they're down because when the song sings about say, a relationship break-up. People like this because it describes how they're feeling. And they feel connected to this song because it is almost like you're listening to somebody with the same problem, and you understand.
She didn't really fall off her bike.
Just a few other songs that i've heard recently:
Cya'l!
*"Insert favourite song lyrics here"*
Well I don't need to say I haven't blogged in ages because its obvious.
Just got back from Iceland, definitely the best trip of a lifetime ever! Just so spectacular..
Lalalala ive actually forgotten what i was going to say, well that makes this post pointless haha!
Ive got really into loads of songs recently including "Daughtry" , Now i must admit i sort of protect music i like rather jealously. As in i might not give away songs i like because i enjoy being the only person i know with them.BUT being the unselfish and self-critical person i am means i understand this is a stupid and selfish thing to think so i ignore these thoughts.
If only everyone could evaluate their actions.
Indeed.
Well the best Daughtry songs are:
- Life After You
- What About Now
- Home
- Home (Acoustic)
- Feels Like Tonight
- Over You
"What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me, all that i was meant to be.
What if our love, never went away?
What if it's lost behind, words we can never find.."
I think Blogger is making Grooveshark run slowly because it won't load any songs. Oh wait there we go.
Its playing Over You at the moment, good stuff.
Isn't it funny how music can really affect how you feel? How some people listen to music of a certain tone or genre because of its themes and mostly because of what it says. Some music can be really deep and meaning, and really move you to emotion, for example My Immortal by Evanescense once made me cry, when my life was perfectly happy. Proving that either i am a spineless emotional wreck, or music really can inspire emotions.
People probably listen to sad music when they're down because when the song sings about say, a relationship break-up. People like this because it describes how they're feeling. And they feel connected to this song because it is almost like you're listening to somebody with the same problem, and you understand.
She didn't really fall off her bike.
Just a few other songs that i've heard recently:
- Far Away - Nickelback ... This was my Iceland song really, because it was about being away from the one you love.
- Quote - Evans Blue ... Nice beginning i think, it is a sadder song though.
- Time after Time - Elliot Minor ... Orchestral Rock song.
Cya'l!
*"Insert favourite song lyrics here"*
Saturday, 20 February 2010
1#
"There is always a light in the dark, a spark in the night, if you have the will and strength to find it"
Parants, the bane of every child..
Haha well to cut to the chase because of an obsene post someone put on my brothers facebook me and him are now not allowed our laptops upstairs, they have to be 'where we can see you'.. They're obviously forgetting the fact that with me sitting here in the corner they cant see what i'm doing anyway..
But to be honest due to my nature, i had 10 minites of standing by myself in my room thinking about nothing, then all frustration had just, gone.. I'm suprised at myself how fast i vent my anger without even having to hit anything or shout. When dad shouted at me to 'tell the truth' (which i was) i was extremely tempted to tell him that shouting may have scared me into telling everything when i was 7.. but now it just makes me less inclined to tell him anything because of his attitude. Well i shouldnt put it all against them they're just trying too hard to 'look after us'.. But possibly cant accept that the world isnt a pretty place whre all their rules are abayed, sear words do become part of natural language as you get older and they CANNOT tell me they have NEVER lied or broken rules before. And they never had internet trouble, because they didnt have internet in the frikking stone age!! It's almost laughable in a weird way.
I liked their speech about how untrustworthy we are, when they've known us longer then me know our-selves and so obviously know what type of people we are, fail parants i'm sorry.
Oh and they said they didnt understand the thrills of plastering yourself over the internet, wake up the internet is the world in this age! And im doing it right now.
Hehe ohh anyway i had a great day on thursday, a day with Sian = Heaven.
But thats all you need to know hehe.
Bye for now!
Cya'l!
"I will not bow, I will not break,
I will shut the world away,
I will not fall, I will not fake,
I will take your breath away.."
But to be honest due to my nature, i had 10 minites of standing by myself in my room thinking about nothing, then all frustration had just, gone.. I'm suprised at myself how fast i vent my anger without even having to hit anything or shout. When dad shouted at me to 'tell the truth' (which i was) i was extremely tempted to tell him that shouting may have scared me into telling everything when i was 7.. but now it just makes me less inclined to tell him anything because of his attitude. Well i shouldnt put it all against them they're just trying too hard to 'look after us'.. But possibly cant accept that the world isnt a pretty place whre all their rules are abayed, sear words do become part of natural language as you get older and they CANNOT tell me they have NEVER lied or broken rules before. And they never had internet trouble, because they didnt have internet in the frikking stone age!! It's almost laughable in a weird way.
I liked their speech about how untrustworthy we are, when they've known us longer then me know our-selves and so obviously know what type of people we are, fail parants i'm sorry.
Oh and they said they didnt understand the thrills of plastering yourself over the internet, wake up the internet is the world in this age! And im doing it right now.
Hehe ohh anyway i had a great day on thursday, a day with Sian = Heaven.
But thats all you need to know hehe.
Bye for now!
Cya'l!
"I will not bow, I will not break,
I will shut the world away,
I will not fall, I will not fake,
I will take your breath away.."
Saturday, 13 February 2010
Lights - Saviour
'Lights' are currently on tour with Owl City.
Although it doesnt really appy to me, it might to others..
Tuesday, 26 January 2010
Nothing to say today.
Nothing much to say today really, hmm yeah.
Well i didnt get done in Critical Thinking cos about 5 other people hadn't done it and i handed in the peice of work i 'thought' we had been supposed to do...
And facebook seems to be working again,
*Deleted this part of the post cos i decided against it*
"Always look on the bright side of life"
Well i didnt get done in Critical Thinking cos about 5 other people hadn't done it and i handed in the peice of work i 'thought' we had been supposed to do...
And facebook seems to be working again,
*Deleted this part of the post cos i decided against it*
"Always look on the bright side of life"
Monday, 25 January 2010
"And i wanted you to know, that i love the way you laugh"
Well well here we are again, lying here wondering what to write in today's post. I usually do this when I'm bored and there's nothing else to do now. I came online to ask someone about the Critical Thinking homework for tomorrow, and they didn't know about it, so now i could either guess what to do or not do it. Both are very unwise options.. And as a side note: Critical Thinking is the worlds most crappiest subject (and i was gonna colour that red, but the colour bar has disappeared....
Sorry had to take a moment to make a confused face and double check the toolbar bit.
Well back to the blog, I'm going to blog your socks off dear readers, about pointless topics and in the unfortunate style of everyone Else's blog, depressing subjects probably.
Well lets start with that I'm really annoyed with myself, i was on bebo (hehe) because my facebook has exploded (more on that in a bit)and was posting on Sian's profile. The for some stupid reason, i clicked the "Show All Comments" butten and scrolled to the comments Ben posted while they where going out (Repetitive crap) but there was a picture of them hugging.. And for some reason this affected me, this kind of.. anger, jealousy? boiled up in me and i swiftly exited the web page. Although it was too late, i now have this image of them hugging, and the smile on her face. But what the fuck is wrong with me? they're not going out, they never speak, she hates him and tells me everyday how much she loves me. Ive never been a jealous person although i am prone to some paranoia's, so i dunno. I'm never going near that certain area again. And I'm going to give her a big hug tomorrow and tell her how much i love her. Because it will make be feel better. Don't get me wrong I'm not worried that they'll get back together or something cos i doubt that will ever happen. But, but its when i see a message from him from like four months ago expressing love or from her doing the same, or if she talks about what they did (although she hasn't done that for months now)i remember he telling me about sports day and them lying on the Field and how she was the happiest she's ever been, and it just makes me think "Well how do i beat that then? if it was the best." so then i get paranoid again for crap reasons. But me being me i think i can suss out a cause, everyone in a relationship fears the same, that the other may lose interest and leave. We don't acknowledge this feeling and push it to the back of our minds but it's always there. Hell I'm even worried id stop liking her, she's so amazingly lovely.
Wow, id better stop this it sounds like I'm having doubts, but I'm not I'm not at all. I love her more and more everyday and school just annoys me because people being about especially teachers means i cant express that love as much as i want too. Though i dint care if people see, teachers are weird about relationships in school; something i still don't understand.
Haha in fact this reminds me of a lovely dream i had about a week ago. In it Sian was round here and we decided to go for a walk (and we took the dog, bear in mind when i had this dream we did not own the dog we had only seen in in the kennels, yet it was in the dream anyway) but yeah it was summer and really warm and the ground was dry and grassy and we just lay on this hill and kissed and hugged and it was perfect. (The dog lay nearby with its lead pegged into the ground). I wish i could dream of her more often,and I've had some pretty messed up dreams before featuring people Ive only ever seen and never talked too.
Hmm well i think that's it apart from to say 'I Love You Sian!' in case she magically reads this or something haha.
Well onto the next bit, we got a dog this weekend too. Named 'Nell' she's a female German Shepherd cross Collie and is a very lovely dog. She already can 'Sit' 'lie down' and almost 'Heel'. Although she does have a tendencie to jump up at you if she's exited but we counter that by ignoring her (manual says too haha).
That's Her; She's a beautiful dog.
Oh yeah the facebook thing, its not much but my facebook is exploding, it wont let me post comments or go on note's! So i have been tagged in one and am yet to read it and people are commenting on mine but i cant read them either. It's frustrating to say the least.
There's so many depressing blogs around at the moment, its scary and saddening. Let me ask: How do you help someone who doesnt want to be helped? The answer, you don't. BUT that is a crap thing to do, everyone should help each other. And i've tried so hard.
Well that's all for now i think.
Song of the day hmm lets see; well i really like this song, has a great tune and is fun to sing along too. And the song applies to a few people. The whole first paragraph applies to one lovely person. But also line two applies to someone too.
"And I wanted you to know, that i love the way you laugh,
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away,
I keep your photograph, and i know it serves me well,
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain,
Cos im broken, when im lonesome,
And i dont feel right, when you're gone away.."
'Broken' by Seether feat Amy Lee
Apologies for spelling errors, i can't be bothered to check it all.
Sorry had to take a moment to make a confused face and double check the toolbar bit.
Well back to the blog, I'm going to blog your socks off dear readers, about pointless topics and in the unfortunate style of everyone Else's blog, depressing subjects probably.
Well lets start with that I'm really annoyed with myself, i was on bebo (hehe) because my facebook has exploded (more on that in a bit)and was posting on Sian's profile. The for some stupid reason, i clicked the "Show All Comments" butten and scrolled to the comments Ben posted while they where going out (Repetitive crap) but there was a picture of them hugging.. And for some reason this affected me, this kind of.. anger, jealousy? boiled up in me and i swiftly exited the web page. Although it was too late, i now have this image of them hugging, and the smile on her face. But what the fuck is wrong with me? they're not going out, they never speak, she hates him and tells me everyday how much she loves me. Ive never been a jealous person although i am prone to some paranoia's, so i dunno. I'm never going near that certain area again. And I'm going to give her a big hug tomorrow and tell her how much i love her. Because it will make be feel better. Don't get me wrong I'm not worried that they'll get back together or something cos i doubt that will ever happen. But, but its when i see a message from him from like four months ago expressing love or from her doing the same, or if she talks about what they did (although she hasn't done that for months now)i remember he telling me about sports day and them lying on the Field and how she was the happiest she's ever been, and it just makes me think "Well how do i beat that then? if it was the best." so then i get paranoid again for crap reasons. But me being me i think i can suss out a cause, everyone in a relationship fears the same, that the other may lose interest and leave. We don't acknowledge this feeling and push it to the back of our minds but it's always there. Hell I'm even worried id stop liking her, she's so amazingly lovely.
Wow, id better stop this it sounds like I'm having doubts, but I'm not I'm not at all. I love her more and more everyday and school just annoys me because people being about especially teachers means i cant express that love as much as i want too. Though i dint care if people see, teachers are weird about relationships in school; something i still don't understand.
Haha in fact this reminds me of a lovely dream i had about a week ago. In it Sian was round here and we decided to go for a walk (and we took the dog, bear in mind when i had this dream we did not own the dog we had only seen in in the kennels, yet it was in the dream anyway) but yeah it was summer and really warm and the ground was dry and grassy and we just lay on this hill and kissed and hugged and it was perfect. (The dog lay nearby with its lead pegged into the ground). I wish i could dream of her more often,and I've had some pretty messed up dreams before featuring people Ive only ever seen and never talked too.
Hmm well i think that's it apart from to say 'I Love You Sian!' in case she magically reads this or something haha.
Well onto the next bit, we got a dog this weekend too. Named 'Nell' she's a female German Shepherd cross Collie and is a very lovely dog. She already can 'Sit' 'lie down' and almost 'Heel'. Although she does have a tendencie to jump up at you if she's exited but we counter that by ignoring her (manual says too haha).
That's Her; She's a beautiful dog.
Oh yeah the facebook thing, its not much but my facebook is exploding, it wont let me post comments or go on note's! So i have been tagged in one and am yet to read it and people are commenting on mine but i cant read them either. It's frustrating to say the least.
There's so many depressing blogs around at the moment, its scary and saddening. Let me ask: How do you help someone who doesnt want to be helped? The answer, you don't. BUT that is a crap thing to do, everyone should help each other. And i've tried so hard.
Well that's all for now i think.
Song of the day hmm lets see; well i really like this song, has a great tune and is fun to sing along too. And the song applies to a few people. The whole first paragraph applies to one lovely person. But also line two applies to someone too.
"And I wanted you to know, that i love the way you laugh,
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away,
I keep your photograph, and i know it serves me well,
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain,
Cos im broken, when im lonesome,
And i dont feel right, when you're gone away.."
'Broken' by Seether feat Amy Lee
Apologies for spelling errors, i can't be bothered to check it all.
Friday, 15 January 2010
Just felt like writing something, emotional :L
“Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect you and treat you bad. Let fate deal with the things they do, because hate in your heart will consume you too.”
Life's not perfect, we all know that. Yet each of us should strive to make it as good for the next person as possible. Go out of our way just slightly to help that extra person. Not in the silly ways people like teachers put it like holding doors and saying thanks. No this is deeper, the very inner workings of human emotion. We should strive to ensure those around us are at least content with the world. If they're not, we should at least attempt to help them, and sometimes even trying to listen to what the helper is trying to say can make so much difference. If we are unable to help those most in need, we should question ourselves to perceive the answer.
To taunt and upset purposefully will eventually rot your core until there is nothing but a stone cold shell from which the only emotion is hate and disgust. But likewise to give up on yourself, or on those who love you most is another form of inner corruption. The kind that will leave you alone in the dark, the kind that will turn the world grey and the food to ash. These events cannot be undone, so for those who strive to reach the light as all human beings do, do not follow the path to despair. If things are not working, find ways to fix them. If people are not helping, do not look to them for help but instead turn to those you will give you it straight from their hearts. Look at the world today, the earthquakes that kill millions and destroy families and relationships, do not give up on life until you have suffered as they have suffered and bled as they have bled. Not the petty self-inflicted wounds of an attention seeking individual crying out for help but too afraid to ask for it. But the blood of family that stains your shirt, the remains of children you cradle in your arms. Only then at the end of all things you may lie down and die. But they don't, something keeps them going, forces greater then any upon this earth, forces science cannot understand and humanity cannot control; Love and Hope. So embrace these feelings, wrap yourself in them and hold them tight. If your life is good, take a look around and see the others who have suffered to create that life for you, for there is always someone in the shadows, calling out to you.
Life's not perfect, we all know that. Yet each of us should strive to make it as good for the next person as possible. Go out of our way just slightly to help that extra person. Not in the silly ways people like teachers put it like holding doors and saying thanks. No this is deeper, the very inner workings of human emotion. We should strive to ensure those around us are at least content with the world. If they're not, we should at least attempt to help them, and sometimes even trying to listen to what the helper is trying to say can make so much difference. If we are unable to help those most in need, we should question ourselves to perceive the answer.
To taunt and upset purposefully will eventually rot your core until there is nothing but a stone cold shell from which the only emotion is hate and disgust. But likewise to give up on yourself, or on those who love you most is another form of inner corruption. The kind that will leave you alone in the dark, the kind that will turn the world grey and the food to ash. These events cannot be undone, so for those who strive to reach the light as all human beings do, do not follow the path to despair. If things are not working, find ways to fix them. If people are not helping, do not look to them for help but instead turn to those you will give you it straight from their hearts. Look at the world today, the earthquakes that kill millions and destroy families and relationships, do not give up on life until you have suffered as they have suffered and bled as they have bled. Not the petty self-inflicted wounds of an attention seeking individual crying out for help but too afraid to ask for it. But the blood of family that stains your shirt, the remains of children you cradle in your arms. Only then at the end of all things you may lie down and die. But they don't, something keeps them going, forces greater then any upon this earth, forces science cannot understand and humanity cannot control; Love and Hope. So embrace these feelings, wrap yourself in them and hold them tight. If your life is good, take a look around and see the others who have suffered to create that life for you, for there is always someone in the shadows, calling out to you.
Monday, 4 January 2010
I Seem to have forgotten to blog :L
This Will be corrected shortly, i hope...
Hmm i could just do a list of things that've happened to save time, yeah.
So between now and my last blog i can remember ive:
Hmm i could just do a list of things that've happened to save time, yeah.
So between now and my last blog i can remember ive:
- Argued some more with Ben, the prat.
- Had christmas, i got a purple i-pod! its beautiful.
- Hmm had a new years party (and new year) we broke our cousins bed.. that sounds wrong its ok we sat down a bit hard and the slats snapped. Umm yeah my cousin was amazingly drunk, which was amusing. She fell out the window onto the garage roof though, which was scary...
- Said some stupid stuff to someone, then regretted it and apologised, i wonder if they forgave me though..
- Went to my girlfriends, which was the highlight of the holidays by far, i think her mum should leave us alone in the house more often.. hehe
- Bought a new hoodie from Topman in carlisle, its purple!
"Im missing you so much, il say you die tonght,
Just so i can get to you before the sun will rise,
I know these times are hard and i feel this too,
But non of that ever seems to matter when i'm holding you,
And i'm wasting away, away from you.."
Thursday, 17 December 2009
Well, things are well fucked up ay' lad
Oh dear, oh dear.
Hello again reader (if anyone bothers to read these), I’ve decided to only post when something big-ish happens.
Well it’s all been happening this last week; I’m going to start with the bad.
Basically, I’m incredibly pissed off with a certain Ben Bradbury, I’ll try to explain (and possibly vent my frustration here and not into the msn conversation with Katie). Well the stupid thing is it doesn’t actually concern Ben at all, but his friend Dylan (Dillon?), basically this Dylan has been harassing Sian and her friend Emma for god-knows how long, months.. And it finally came to the point when we decided enough was enough, but somehow we ended up talking to Ben about Dylan instead. It was hard to keep it neutral but I tried so hard not to end up shouting and arguing (I hate that stuff, some people never realize it doesn’t help) and succeeded, even when the conversation was turning stupid, we where trying to explain to Ben, why we dislike Dylan. But he wouldn’t even hear a word against him; although he contradicted himself by claiming when he was with Sian he got annoyed at Dylan too! So surly he must understand! But no, it seems not. I mean, as much as people like Josh would love me to hate Ben, I don't because there is no point to it; he hasn't done anything against me as far as I know ever, ever! But right now especially I’m just so frustrated at him and his attitude! It’s like when we end an argument, he starts it again! When we are specifically talking about Dylan, he seems to think we mean him and leaves the conversation claiming we have "always been mean to him for no reason" excuse me? We are not even freaking talking about you Ben! Stop taking things so personally, you can't go through life if you don’t learn to listen to people when they are trying to help!!
Phew this is definitely venting some anger.
Yeah well with that gone I feel slightly better now, felt like shit before, what with the Ben affair and reading Heather's blog posts, makes me sad. I don't understand what she's going through and even though we are obviously not best friends (just because, you know, we're not), I wish I cold help, but I don't see how. Maybe she’ll find it good to know someone, even, to be honest; a stranger like me cares? And I know you may well read this Heather, and I, wish I could help; I hate to see anyone down, even people I don’t know. (I’m resisting the urge to put sad face emoticons here at the moment) Though I could say I know her fairly well, there are definitely people who know so much more, we only met by default through Katie, and I can safely say we get along so much better then I do with Abbie.
Oh dear I would say "why can't life be simple" but I know the answer I would give to it...
Maybe its time to leave these depressing stories in the darkness and open a new page in the story of happiness and love. Well I’ll start with the fact I’ve had my fist kiss! Ever, ha-ha bet your laughing now going "oh my god he’s so like a 6 year old getting exited at kissing"... well I say "screw you and your judgment"; But yeah, it started with like, a peck on the lips (we'd been cheek kissing for a while) and um, the next day we did it for longer, and so on... Well I know understand the hype about this stuff, every time we kiss I get this amazing tingle in my chest and butterflies flutter-by inside me (poetic eh). Mmm so yeah, can't wait to do that again. It keeps me so warm and fuzzy inside. Sian wasn't even at school today because she had some illness of the throaty kind, I felt horrible! Honestly can't describe it, although I may know what love sick is now, I think it’s when the butterflies in your stomach are so bad you feel ill... But that’s just me. But yeah I get to see her and hug her and hold her tomorrow! And then the rest of the Christmas holidays! It will be awesome.
Well, I can’t think of anything else to put here today. There will be most likely more for tomorrow the last half day of school. Realized that the last lesson today was the last lesson of the decade! Man 10 years has gone past fast; I hope life doesn’t go like this it’ll be over before it begins!
Ha-ha well anyway I’m off for now; the internet here has failed so I’m going to save this to a word.doc and paste it into blogger after I’ve restarted the computer.
Cya'l!
Song of the day:
"I think I’ve walked too close to love, and now I’m falling in,
There's so many things this weary soul can't take,
Maybe you just caught me by surprise,
The first time that I looked into your eyes,
Cos there’s a life inside of me, that I can feel again,
And it’s the only thing that takes me where I’ve never been,
And I don’t care if I lost everything that I have known,
Cos it don’t matter where I lay my head tonight,
Your arms feel like home, feel like home..."
3 Doors Down - Your Arms Feel Like Home
What an album. =]
Hello again reader (if anyone bothers to read these), I’ve decided to only post when something big-ish happens.
Well it’s all been happening this last week; I’m going to start with the bad.
Basically, I’m incredibly pissed off with a certain Ben Bradbury, I’ll try to explain (and possibly vent my frustration here and not into the msn conversation with Katie). Well the stupid thing is it doesn’t actually concern Ben at all, but his friend Dylan (Dillon?), basically this Dylan has been harassing Sian and her friend Emma for god-knows how long, months.. And it finally came to the point when we decided enough was enough, but somehow we ended up talking to Ben about Dylan instead. It was hard to keep it neutral but I tried so hard not to end up shouting and arguing (I hate that stuff, some people never realize it doesn’t help) and succeeded, even when the conversation was turning stupid, we where trying to explain to Ben, why we dislike Dylan. But he wouldn’t even hear a word against him; although he contradicted himself by claiming when he was with Sian he got annoyed at Dylan too! So surly he must understand! But no, it seems not. I mean, as much as people like Josh would love me to hate Ben, I don't because there is no point to it; he hasn't done anything against me as far as I know ever, ever! But right now especially I’m just so frustrated at him and his attitude! It’s like when we end an argument, he starts it again! When we are specifically talking about Dylan, he seems to think we mean him and leaves the conversation claiming we have "always been mean to him for no reason" excuse me? We are not even freaking talking about you Ben! Stop taking things so personally, you can't go through life if you don’t learn to listen to people when they are trying to help!!
Phew this is definitely venting some anger.
Yeah well with that gone I feel slightly better now, felt like shit before, what with the Ben affair and reading Heather's blog posts, makes me sad. I don't understand what she's going through and even though we are obviously not best friends (just because, you know, we're not), I wish I cold help, but I don't see how. Maybe she’ll find it good to know someone, even, to be honest; a stranger like me cares? And I know you may well read this Heather, and I, wish I could help; I hate to see anyone down, even people I don’t know. (I’m resisting the urge to put sad face emoticons here at the moment) Though I could say I know her fairly well, there are definitely people who know so much more, we only met by default through Katie, and I can safely say we get along so much better then I do with Abbie.
Oh dear I would say "why can't life be simple" but I know the answer I would give to it...
Maybe its time to leave these depressing stories in the darkness and open a new page in the story of happiness and love. Well I’ll start with the fact I’ve had my fist kiss! Ever, ha-ha bet your laughing now going "oh my god he’s so like a 6 year old getting exited at kissing"... well I say "screw you and your judgment"; But yeah, it started with like, a peck on the lips (we'd been cheek kissing for a while) and um, the next day we did it for longer, and so on... Well I know understand the hype about this stuff, every time we kiss I get this amazing tingle in my chest and butterflies flutter-by inside me (poetic eh). Mmm so yeah, can't wait to do that again. It keeps me so warm and fuzzy inside. Sian wasn't even at school today because she had some illness of the throaty kind, I felt horrible! Honestly can't describe it, although I may know what love sick is now, I think it’s when the butterflies in your stomach are so bad you feel ill... But that’s just me. But yeah I get to see her and hug her and hold her tomorrow! And then the rest of the Christmas holidays! It will be awesome.
Well, I can’t think of anything else to put here today. There will be most likely more for tomorrow the last half day of school. Realized that the last lesson today was the last lesson of the decade! Man 10 years has gone past fast; I hope life doesn’t go like this it’ll be over before it begins!
Ha-ha well anyway I’m off for now; the internet here has failed so I’m going to save this to a word.doc and paste it into blogger after I’ve restarted the computer.
Cya'l!
Song of the day:
"I think I’ve walked too close to love, and now I’m falling in,
There's so many things this weary soul can't take,
Maybe you just caught me by surprise,
The first time that I looked into your eyes,
Cos there’s a life inside of me, that I can feel again,
And it’s the only thing that takes me where I’ve never been,
And I don’t care if I lost everything that I have known,
Cos it don’t matter where I lay my head tonight,
Your arms feel like home, feel like home..."
3 Doors Down - Your Arms Feel Like Home
What an album. =]
Thursday, 10 December 2009
"Sing a song of christmas"
Howdy All,
Well todays should be a short one but you never know, not after the last post...
Hmm well Life rolls on at its usual pace and my heart slowly beats away the days of my life,
Ooh thats quite good, wonder if i could make a song outa that, by the way its copyrighted now becasue ive written it down so dont get any ideas people....
(Copyright George December 2009)
Ha ha anyway, mm well the highlight of the day was definatly Film Club, or as Sians mum rightly put it "Snog Club"... Ha well the movie we watched was called "American Splendor" and to be honest, it sucked, it was hard to understand what was going on and i didnt like the story, just someone explaining how crap their life is. Obviously everyone else thought that because eveyone went hyper and completely of their heads on energy drink i think. So yeah even if you'd wanted too you couldnt have heard much of the film over the laughter of the audience. But we all know the reasons you go to the "cinema" with girlfriends and boyfriends, its just a lovely excuse to hug and kiss them constantly, which is what happened. And i loved every second of it.
Well todays should be a short one but you never know, not after the last post...
Hmm well Life rolls on at its usual pace and my heart slowly beats away the days of my life,
Ooh thats quite good, wonder if i could make a song outa that, by the way its copyrighted now becasue ive written it down so dont get any ideas people....
(Copyright George December 2009)
Ha ha anyway, mm well the highlight of the day was definatly Film Club, or as Sians mum rightly put it "Snog Club"... Ha well the movie we watched was called "American Splendor" and to be honest, it sucked, it was hard to understand what was going on and i didnt like the story, just someone explaining how crap their life is. Obviously everyone else thought that because eveyone went hyper and completely of their heads on energy drink i think. So yeah even if you'd wanted too you couldnt have heard much of the film over the laughter of the audience. But we all know the reasons you go to the "cinema" with girlfriends and boyfriends, its just a lovely excuse to hug and kiss them constantly, which is what happened. And i loved every second of it.
One last thing, in case you dont know i have curly hair, which really annoys me as its uncontrollable and cant be styled in any way, so i did a quick test using the straighteners and as i've never used any before the result was average...
Well i think i'm done here really, short and to the point post if you ask me.
Cya'l!
Cya'l!
And the song of the day is:
"Meet me after dark again And I'll hold you (hold you)
I am nothing more than to see you there (hold you)
And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn
If only night could hold you
Where I can see you, my love
Then let me never ever wake again
And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn"
Before The Dawn - Evenescence
Oh dear, ive just been informed of some bad stuff over MSN...
"Meet me after dark again And I'll hold you (hold you)
I am nothing more than to see you there (hold you)
And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn
If only night could hold you
Where I can see you, my love
Then let me never ever wake again
And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn"
Before The Dawn - Evenescence
Oh dear, ive just been informed of some bad stuff over MSN...
Wednesday, 9 December 2009
"Let it snow, baby... Let It Reindeer"
Well, it seems i missed a few days, whoops...
I think I'll only blog here if I'm bored or something major happens, yeah.
Anyway, today, today-today hm lets see...
Nothing happened.. I think...
Well I'll just talk about crap then, my mum tasked me to find some new Christmas themed music, so i set about my task with an air of enthusiasm and thanks to google and the search "New Christmas rock songs" i came across an amusing song by Blink 182 called "Won't be home for Christmas", basically its about how the person hates Christmas and all the happiness, thought it suited Katie loads, depressing child ha ha, she doesn't like Christmas! why? Oh there will be a reason or five... Anyway i continued searching but didn't find much else. I'd also posted a request for songs on Facebook and asked a few people on MSN but nothing was happening UNTIL Katie informed me of a band she'd found called Reliant K who had a Christmas album, i didn't tell her id already heard of this band from my google search but didn't investigate any of their songs..
But i listened to their album on YouTube and was impressed, it was exactly what i wanted!
So through some not so complicated data transferring via website and pen drive i soon had the album on my Itunes! I'm actually listening to the album right now, its really good. It has songs composed by the band on but also numerous rock covers of well known carols such as "Deck the Halls" "We Wish You A Merry Christmas" and "The 12 Days Of Christmas". And it also has a version of "Auld Lang Syne" (song you sing at new year, if you didn't know) that has the best harmony I've ever heard!
I advise anyone reading this to search YouTube for "Reliant K Christmas Album" and have a listen, i guarantee you'll be impressed... In fact, i bet your all too lazy to, so here it is: Link
You lazy children....
Well, the Christmas album has just finished, its 5 past 12 at night, and I'm tired. So i think I'll sign off for today. It seems i constantly look foreword to school now, just because i get to see Sian! But i wont get exited now cos i wont get to sleep for hours now. Wow that's weird, every time i think of Sian i can smell her perfume...
The mind is a funny fellow indeed, not that I'm complaining, its lovely in fact, when we hug at school some of it must like rub off onto my jumper because after hugging her my arm always smells of her, bet people wonder why I'm constantly sniffing my arm during lessons, if only they knew....
Ooh i can say one thing that really pisses me off, the fucking plastics (and of course, "the blob) constantly bothering me and Sian about our relationship, only yesterday one asked "How far have you gone?" i mean what the hell girl? Since when did it matter to you? and why do you care anyway? oh i know, its so you can go tell everyone and be the center of attention, that's it. What a fucking joke. So anyway i just ignored her (the trick I've learned with these people, is not to give in and tell them, its what they want. Luckily I'm used to this with my brother so can ignore someone for a very long time) but she kept asking over and over then said "your going to tell me!" and i said "No I'm not" then she said "you have too" and i just went "no" and turned away. I was so annoyed with her i flt like jumping up and shouting at her to fuck the hell off but obviously i didn't, but i was really angry inside and i know that when I'm angry i tend to snap at people for no reason, so i just kept quiet and listened to what the guys where saying, unfortunately this led Sian to believe i was upset about something which upset her too, but i explained and all was well, but it was so comforting to know she cares, it always is, that's why i love her so much.
For some reason this has made my eyes slightly more watery then usual, i always get more emotional when I'm tired, a few weeks ago i was listening to "My Immortal" to lull me too sleep (which it does) but instead i ended up crying and i don't know why, i couldn't help myself.. But anyway, i found it relieving to see there was some emotion in me, i haven't cried for ages, i mean ages. I've stopped myself from crying when i shouldn't have and now I'm ashamed of it, i think its because i used to have this annoying habit of at school if i got told off badly or put in detention i would cry, and i guess its cos its really embarrassing. So I've become stone hearted, and its sucks man, its horrible.
Just realised how much I've written on a post i didn't think i would, but that's cool.
For some reason i want someone to read this, no anyone in particular just someone i know so they can see how i am, i don't think many people understand how i think, and i cant explain it either.
Well its late now so,
Cya'l!
I think I'll only blog here if I'm bored or something major happens, yeah.
Anyway, today, today-today hm lets see...
Nothing happened.. I think...
Well I'll just talk about crap then, my mum tasked me to find some new Christmas themed music, so i set about my task with an air of enthusiasm and thanks to google and the search "New Christmas rock songs" i came across an amusing song by Blink 182 called "Won't be home for Christmas", basically its about how the person hates Christmas and all the happiness, thought it suited Katie loads, depressing child ha ha, she doesn't like Christmas! why? Oh there will be a reason or five... Anyway i continued searching but didn't find much else. I'd also posted a request for songs on Facebook and asked a few people on MSN but nothing was happening UNTIL Katie informed me of a band she'd found called Reliant K who had a Christmas album, i didn't tell her id already heard of this band from my google search but didn't investigate any of their songs..
But i listened to their album on YouTube and was impressed, it was exactly what i wanted!
So through some not so complicated data transferring via website and pen drive i soon had the album on my Itunes! I'm actually listening to the album right now, its really good. It has songs composed by the band on but also numerous rock covers of well known carols such as "Deck the Halls" "We Wish You A Merry Christmas" and "The 12 Days Of Christmas". And it also has a version of "Auld Lang Syne" (song you sing at new year, if you didn't know) that has the best harmony I've ever heard!
I advise anyone reading this to search YouTube for "Reliant K Christmas Album" and have a listen, i guarantee you'll be impressed... In fact, i bet your all too lazy to, so here it is: Link
You lazy children....
Well, the Christmas album has just finished, its 5 past 12 at night, and I'm tired. So i think I'll sign off for today. It seems i constantly look foreword to school now, just because i get to see Sian! But i wont get exited now cos i wont get to sleep for hours now. Wow that's weird, every time i think of Sian i can smell her perfume...
The mind is a funny fellow indeed, not that I'm complaining, its lovely in fact, when we hug at school some of it must like rub off onto my jumper because after hugging her my arm always smells of her, bet people wonder why I'm constantly sniffing my arm during lessons, if only they knew....
Ooh i can say one thing that really pisses me off, the fucking plastics (and of course, "the blob) constantly bothering me and Sian about our relationship, only yesterday one asked "How far have you gone?" i mean what the hell girl? Since when did it matter to you? and why do you care anyway? oh i know, its so you can go tell everyone and be the center of attention, that's it. What a fucking joke. So anyway i just ignored her (the trick I've learned with these people, is not to give in and tell them, its what they want. Luckily I'm used to this with my brother so can ignore someone for a very long time) but she kept asking over and over then said "your going to tell me!" and i said "No I'm not" then she said "you have too" and i just went "no" and turned away. I was so annoyed with her i flt like jumping up and shouting at her to fuck the hell off but obviously i didn't, but i was really angry inside and i know that when I'm angry i tend to snap at people for no reason, so i just kept quiet and listened to what the guys where saying, unfortunately this led Sian to believe i was upset about something which upset her too, but i explained and all was well, but it was so comforting to know she cares, it always is, that's why i love her so much.
For some reason this has made my eyes slightly more watery then usual, i always get more emotional when I'm tired, a few weeks ago i was listening to "My Immortal" to lull me too sleep (which it does) but instead i ended up crying and i don't know why, i couldn't help myself.. But anyway, i found it relieving to see there was some emotion in me, i haven't cried for ages, i mean ages. I've stopped myself from crying when i shouldn't have and now I'm ashamed of it, i think its because i used to have this annoying habit of at school if i got told off badly or put in detention i would cry, and i guess its cos its really embarrassing. So I've become stone hearted, and its sucks man, its horrible.
Just realised how much I've written on a post i didn't think i would, but that's cool.
For some reason i want someone to read this, no anyone in particular just someone i know so they can see how i am, i don't think many people understand how i think, and i cant explain it either.
Well its late now so,
Cya'l!
"It'd be so nice to look out the window,
And see the leaves on the tree's begin to show,
The birds would congregate and sing,
A song of birth a song of newer things,
The wind will calm and the sun would shine,
I'd go outside and i'd squint my eyes,
And see the leaves on the tree's begin to show,
The birds would congregate and sing,
A song of birth a song of newer things,
The wind will calm and the sun would shine,
I'd go outside and i'd squint my eyes,
But for now I'll simply just withdraw,
Sit here and wait for this world to thaw...."
In Like A Lion (Always Winter) - Reliant K
Sit here and wait for this world to thaw...."
In Like A Lion (Always Winter) - Reliant K
Sunday, 6 December 2009
Next one =]
Well, today's been pretty crap, well the start was but the ends been average.
Started the day doing that essay i spoke of in the last entry, finally got it done! Cant say how happy that made me. Its funny, yesterday i couldn't think what to write but today it just happened! The words came and i finished it in half the time it took me to write a paragraph yesterday (basically all day).
So yeah, i was overjoyed to have it finished and did a jig, just kidding.
Dunno what happened to the rest of the day, i cant remember to be honest. But right now at 25 to 8 I'm sitting in the living room on my laptop writing this and listening to the amazing new album "Dear Agony" by Breaking Benjamin, who are by far my favorite band of all time. I dunno how you describe why you like a certain band the best, i can say i like the whole Emo/Rock/Screamo stuff because to me it is exiting to listen too. And some songs are good to sing too (or attempt to). I like BB(Breaking Benjamin) the most because they have a good quality of musical skill, write good songs and catchy tunes, and play awesome guitar pieces in the songs.
(Ooh my favorite one has come on: "Without You")...
Hm well the family seem to be watching Countryfile on TV, i don't really understand the thrills from watching a farmer walking sheep down a road, but each to their own i guess.
Cant wait for tomorrow, i get to see Sian again, (Sian is my girlfriend by the way).
Mm well i could go on forever about how amazing she is but i wont, i'll just say she is my everything and i don't know what id do without her, plus she gives the greatest hugs ever! We annoy our friends by having hugs that last like 5 minutes, people start taping their feet and going "no rush, at all" and i just think "no there isn't" and carry on, i could hold her forever because it keeps me so happy and i hate it when people pull us apart or make remarks no matter how jokingly (which unfortunately happens). Too all those searching for their soul mate (such as one of my best friends, who most likely wont read this) i say hold on, don't give up, if they are the right person then they will realise. And to people suffering a break-up i can only give my deepest sadness.
Enough of that though, Batman Begins is on ITV at 8 (or is it half 8?) i dunno but its a really good movie that I've only seen once, just in case my parents turn evil and decide i cant watch it I've set the Free Sat-Box to record it. Clever eh....
Well its been a long entry today, so much to say.
Be back tomorrow dudes.
Cya'l!
Started the day doing that essay i spoke of in the last entry, finally got it done! Cant say how happy that made me. Its funny, yesterday i couldn't think what to write but today it just happened! The words came and i finished it in half the time it took me to write a paragraph yesterday (basically all day).
So yeah, i was overjoyed to have it finished and did a jig, just kidding.
Dunno what happened to the rest of the day, i cant remember to be honest. But right now at 25 to 8 I'm sitting in the living room on my laptop writing this and listening to the amazing new album "Dear Agony" by Breaking Benjamin, who are by far my favorite band of all time. I dunno how you describe why you like a certain band the best, i can say i like the whole Emo/Rock/Screamo stuff because to me it is exiting to listen too. And some songs are good to sing too (or attempt to). I like BB(Breaking Benjamin) the most because they have a good quality of musical skill, write good songs and catchy tunes, and play awesome guitar pieces in the songs.
(Ooh my favorite one has come on: "Without You")...
Hm well the family seem to be watching Countryfile on TV, i don't really understand the thrills from watching a farmer walking sheep down a road, but each to their own i guess.
Cant wait for tomorrow, i get to see Sian again, (Sian is my girlfriend by the way).
Mm well i could go on forever about how amazing she is but i wont, i'll just say she is my everything and i don't know what id do without her, plus she gives the greatest hugs ever! We annoy our friends by having hugs that last like 5 minutes, people start taping their feet and going "no rush, at all" and i just think "no there isn't" and carry on, i could hold her forever because it keeps me so happy and i hate it when people pull us apart or make remarks no matter how jokingly (which unfortunately happens). Too all those searching for their soul mate (such as one of my best friends, who most likely wont read this) i say hold on, don't give up, if they are the right person then they will realise. And to people suffering a break-up i can only give my deepest sadness.
Enough of that though, Batman Begins is on ITV at 8 (or is it half 8?) i dunno but its a really good movie that I've only seen once, just in case my parents turn evil and decide i cant watch it I've set the Free Sat-Box to record it. Clever eh....
Well its been a long entry today, so much to say.
Be back tomorrow dudes.
Cya'l!
Saturday, 5 December 2009
*Yawn* First Post? Oh, okay...
As the title says *yawn*.....
Well, its saturday, 15:24 pm on the 5th of december. A day when all should be outside enjoying the crisp winter air as it falls down from the atmosphere like a blanket of chilly-ness.
But no, guess what, im here, inside, attempting to write this English Essay..
Its Shakespeare, title is "How does Shakespeare make Act 3, Scene 1 Tense and Exiting?" my answer: Who gives a fuck.
Honestly, if the English dept are trying to make us admire his work they've got another thing coming, essays are just cunning ways to turn kids against great works of literature forever.
This essay's for monday, and ive done 3 paragraphs. I should be writing it rather then this but im past the point of caring, which is never good, ever.
The same Itunes playlist has been playing the same songs over and over, its my Homework playlist so is made of slow type songs to enable me to think while listning. Unfortunatly these slow songs are usually the depressing ones (such as My Immortal - Evanescence, which is on now) which really help to make this dull, grey afternoon so much more exiting, i wish.
*Another yawn* Right, so if i look out the window i can see the only christmas tree around, in the house accross the way's living room. They never remember to shut the curtains so always give me a veiw ito their living room. Not much furniture but thats probably cos they're young people. I seem to be learning about them though, the man spends all day on the computer and the woman just hoovers the same spot repeatedly. They have a son too, a small boy who seems to have grown in like a week.. strange. But enough of that, makes me sound like a nosy person, which im not.
I would write more, but anyone whos reading this is probably bored, il describe my life tommorow...
Cya'l!
Well, its saturday, 15:24 pm on the 5th of december. A day when all should be outside enjoying the crisp winter air as it falls down from the atmosphere like a blanket of chilly-ness.
But no, guess what, im here, inside, attempting to write this English Essay..
Its Shakespeare, title is "How does Shakespeare make Act 3, Scene 1 Tense and Exiting?" my answer: Who gives a fuck.
Honestly, if the English dept are trying to make us admire his work they've got another thing coming, essays are just cunning ways to turn kids against great works of literature forever.
This essay's for monday, and ive done 3 paragraphs. I should be writing it rather then this but im past the point of caring, which is never good, ever.
The same Itunes playlist has been playing the same songs over and over, its my Homework playlist so is made of slow type songs to enable me to think while listning. Unfortunatly these slow songs are usually the depressing ones (such as My Immortal - Evanescence, which is on now) which really help to make this dull, grey afternoon so much more exiting, i wish.
*Another yawn* Right, so if i look out the window i can see the only christmas tree around, in the house accross the way's living room. They never remember to shut the curtains so always give me a veiw ito their living room. Not much furniture but thats probably cos they're young people. I seem to be learning about them though, the man spends all day on the computer and the woman just hoovers the same spot repeatedly. They have a son too, a small boy who seems to have grown in like a week.. strange. But enough of that, makes me sound like a nosy person, which im not.
I would write more, but anyone whos reading this is probably bored, il describe my life tommorow...
Cya'l!
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